CREW JOURNAL
ALICE
Another day of school is over; another boring, ordinary day of school. Well, I guess I should say boring for me because it seemed like everyone else in school (okay, maybe not everyone) had something exciting to do. All day I passed people in the hallway just chatting away: " Hey, are you going to this or that" or "you've gotta come!"
The more I think about it – maybe it’s not because they’re making plans…maybe it’s because they just seem to belong. I don’t know. When people look at me, it feels as if they see me like a piece of furniture; something you know is there but you don’t really pay attention to. Sometimes… I feel so invisible.
Except when I’m with Selena, she's cool; there's something different about her. Everything seems to come so easy for Selena, making friends, talking to people. Me, I get tongue tied, nervous and really shy all at the same time. Oh and let's not forget my face turns cherry red – oh I hate that! Anyway, Selena, and the Crew, invited me to a couple of events at her church, it wasn't too bad. They tried their best to include me in the group - but the Crew is the Crew. I don’t think I could ever truly part of them.
I wonder if I’ll truly be a part of anything?
